If I Wait a Little Longer…

… that last blog entry will be true again. Yes, yes, ashes upon my head, the year has come nearly full circle since I went off to the island, and now it’s only a few weeks until I’ll load up the car and set off again… to the same island even.

Sometimes it’s hard to write something because you just don’t know what to say. Other times it’s equally hard because there’s so much to tell that the task seems overwhelming. The latter is true in my case. When I went off to that island last summer, I had a lot of things on my agenda. There were things I needed to heal from, things I needed to change in my life. One of them was my SL addiction. I didn’t want to leave SL, but I knew I had to grow less dependent on it and to achieve a better balance in my overall life. When I set off, I was quite confident that those three weeks away would help me do that, and indeed they did. I thought about a lot of things during that time and made some decisions that helped me to get my life back on a healthier track.

Of course my intention was to write about all that. I wanted to tell how I came to be so dependent on SL. I wanted to talk about the mechanisms and patterns that kept me hooked.  I wanted to describe how it affected my whole life and nearly undid me. And I wanted to talk about the comparatively small adjustments I made that helped me escape from the maelstrom.

It still is my intention. I think I mentioned elsewhere that I’m an expert procrastinator. And what could be better to procrastinate on than the self-set task of tackling a huge subject, and one that’s getting uncomfortably close to home, in a blog? So here I am, nearly a year down the road, and I still haven’t done it. Most people have probably given up on my blog altogether in the meantime.

But there, I’ve said it now. I am going to write that entry. I’ve even laid down a rough outline of what I am going to say in it. And I’m going to do it way before I set off to the island again. Watch this space. (And keep nagging me in-world!)